Buckhorn's part of the woods

I hate hyperfocus. It's great when it works, but mostly it just sucks the joy from life, because you can't do anything else and my mood just tanks when I try.

Today my brain just jumped right into the rabbit hole of TTRPG.
It's a wast and humongous world and I don't even know where to start.

I'm GM for a new little group of four players. I'm a new GM and they are mostly new players. We have agreed to play every other Friday at 10 am.
But as it is notorious known, making plans for TTRPG is almost impossible. Even with a set schedule.
One of my players had a mental health crisis - I don't blame them for that, it just comes with the territory of having mental illness - and have been out of commission for almost two months.
Last time we tried playing, one of the players just didn't show up (it's online, btw). Turns out they took a nap instead. I felt so disrespected, my whole day was ruined. We were three people ready to play, just waiting. We ended up playing a game of comma (where do you put a correct comma in this sentence?-card game).

This time I have two no-can-do, and that, my fiend, makes it a two months break. After two sessions.
I'm sad.
I'm mostly sad because I have one player who just really wanna try TTRPG, like really, really wanna play, and they are just so ready every time, and it's just disappointment after disappointment.

So. Now I've decided to start a group of them and one of the others on the side. Something small and funny.
I of course have to find the perfect game for them, but I'll have to ask them, what kind of setting they want. And of course I'm all giddy and hyperfocused and they don't respond on Discord 😂 Sigh.

But I have already decided we're gonna try out Roll for Shoes friday, just the three of us. Haven't played it before, but it sounds easy enough and we do have a known setting between us from post-by-post rpg.

This day just magically disappeared and became a headache. And the weather is amazing, but no, my AuDHD-brain just want to sit here and read about TTRPGs.

Tonight my other group is playing. Maybe the last session of Warhammer and I look forward to that. It's been very, very boring. The new GM talks about Mörk Borg, and it seems like a great game, I hope the others says yes.

But for real I have a pretty evil headache right now. I'm just waiting for the painkillers to kick in.

And I didn't write anything today. Ffs.
And tomorrow hubby has the day off, so I probably wont have the time there either, and friday, if they wanna play, I'm too busted.
Even if I didn't choose to take a break, I'm having one anyway. Yay.

Oh well. I'm going outside, hubby og doggo just went out. The sun is shining. I need that.