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I started Monday with the intentions of getting my life under control and back on track this week.
... And the I stretched and all plans were thrown out the window.
I hate having back pain. And this time it's joined by, as usual, bad period cramps. Yesterday I could hardly exist.
Well. I'll just wait until next week with getting my ducks in order. Or in the same box.
I was this ready to do stuff, but no. Sometimes (well, most of this year) it just feels like life has it out for me.
But besides all the pain, it's getting better. I'm not as tired and I feel more in the category of okay. One day at a time.
Last week hubby had a week off, which was nice, but way too short. There's way too much we have to do, and he spend most of the time in the garden raking leaves. But we did finish setting the terrarium up. The heating lamps and a few new plants. I hope we feel ready for the damn animals around new years. We just don't have a clue to what we're doing, so first step is to be sure we can keep the plants alive and keep the temperature and humidity where it should be.
I feel overwhelmed. Not by something in particular, just life and everything in it. I can't keep up. There's so many thing that need attention and I don't have that much space in my head at the moment. Last week I had problems with my pulse, it was way to high for a couple of days. The heart beating way too hard. Stress, no doubt.
Luckily I don't have any wild plans the next few weeks. Chiropractor tomorrow and we have to go vote Tuesday (local elections, not state). And of course dog training tonight.
Saturday is the yearly Great Nordic Word War, which I count on participating in. Not the whole 24 hours, I need my sleep and there's agility, but as much as possible. I don't know how much I'm gonna write, but they keep saying it's not about the amount of words, so ... we'll see. I'm thinking of doing a lot of small texts based on one of the lists from in here. I think it's better to do short intense stories than trying to write anything longer. Make it fun and games.
I re-read some short texts from my idea Werewolves in SPACE. I forgot how much I love the different characters. They really have their own voices.
I fell like returning to the project. I don't like writing, but I do feel like worldbuilding. I've "ruined" a new notebook just for this project, and I think it's working for me, going analog. It feels a lot more concrete and less ... messy? I'm using World Anvils prompts and stuff for it, which is giving me a good basis for where to start. I actually hate worldbuilding, it way too vast and lose for me. But I'm trying. And I hope that getting the setting down on paper helps me making some good plots.
I love the characters. The arsehole werewolf Deke with a hidden heart, the stern, but lost, human/cyborg huntress Castillia, the cynic android Mo, the broken half-orc warrior Tarak, the ambitious human politician Athalos and the female siren Sesiah, beautiful on the outside but ugly on the inside. I really want to give them life.
So, the list of prompts will go to them. I want to explore them.
I still do RP. I don't feel like it these days, but I'm not done. I'm just in pain. And I already need to cut down on threads. Go figure. But there's some pretty good plots on the way, so I'm not going anywhere. I just need to remember not to get stressed about it. Clearly some people have too much tome, the amount of answers some write in a day? Phew, I'm not that fast and I do have a life.
Time to go outside with the doggo and then have a shower. My pain meds just stopped working. Time for some more.
I hate this x__x Why was I born a woman?
But ... I'm starting to feel some sort of excitement for life again, I like it.
One. Day. At. The. Time.
... And the I stretched and all plans were thrown out the window.
I hate having back pain. And this time it's joined by, as usual, bad period cramps. Yesterday I could hardly exist.
Well. I'll just wait until next week with getting my ducks in order. Or in the same box.
I was this ready to do stuff, but no. Sometimes (well, most of this year) it just feels like life has it out for me.
But besides all the pain, it's getting better. I'm not as tired and I feel more in the category of okay. One day at a time.
Last week hubby had a week off, which was nice, but way too short. There's way too much we have to do, and he spend most of the time in the garden raking leaves. But we did finish setting the terrarium up. The heating lamps and a few new plants. I hope we feel ready for the damn animals around new years. We just don't have a clue to what we're doing, so first step is to be sure we can keep the plants alive and keep the temperature and humidity where it should be.
I feel overwhelmed. Not by something in particular, just life and everything in it. I can't keep up. There's so many thing that need attention and I don't have that much space in my head at the moment. Last week I had problems with my pulse, it was way to high for a couple of days. The heart beating way too hard. Stress, no doubt.
Luckily I don't have any wild plans the next few weeks. Chiropractor tomorrow and we have to go vote Tuesday (local elections, not state). And of course dog training tonight.
Saturday is the yearly Great Nordic Word War, which I count on participating in. Not the whole 24 hours, I need my sleep and there's agility, but as much as possible. I don't know how much I'm gonna write, but they keep saying it's not about the amount of words, so ... we'll see. I'm thinking of doing a lot of small texts based on one of the lists from in here. I think it's better to do short intense stories than trying to write anything longer. Make it fun and games.
I re-read some short texts from my idea Werewolves in SPACE. I forgot how much I love the different characters. They really have their own voices.
I fell like returning to the project. I don't like writing, but I do feel like worldbuilding. I've "ruined" a new notebook just for this project, and I think it's working for me, going analog. It feels a lot more concrete and less ... messy? I'm using World Anvils prompts and stuff for it, which is giving me a good basis for where to start. I actually hate worldbuilding, it way too vast and lose for me. But I'm trying. And I hope that getting the setting down on paper helps me making some good plots.
I love the characters. The arsehole werewolf Deke with a hidden heart, the stern, but lost, human/cyborg huntress Castillia, the cynic android Mo, the broken half-orc warrior Tarak, the ambitious human politician Athalos and the female siren Sesiah, beautiful on the outside but ugly on the inside. I really want to give them life.
So, the list of prompts will go to them. I want to explore them.
I still do RP. I don't feel like it these days, but I'm not done. I'm just in pain. And I already need to cut down on threads. Go figure. But there's some pretty good plots on the way, so I'm not going anywhere. I just need to remember not to get stressed about it. Clearly some people have too much tome, the amount of answers some write in a day? Phew, I'm not that fast and I do have a life.
Time to go outside with the doggo and then have a shower. My pain meds just stopped working. Time for some more.
I hate this x__x Why was I born a woman?
But ... I'm starting to feel some sort of excitement for life again, I like it.
One. Day. At. The. Time.
